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Subject: Createful Souls: Allowing and Letting Go
(A SAMPLE)
CREATEFUL
SOULS
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Createful
Souls
The
Care and Feeding of Your Soul in this
Transformational Time |
May
2008
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What's Up with Mary
Beth
I'm writing to you today from
beautiful Pegosa Springs, CO. That's me at
Treasure Falls, it's beautifully green
here.
It's been quite a
month. Thank you all for your well wishes
and for sharing your own struggles in following
the voice or your soul. I know we live in
confusing times and I want to share both what I
experience internally and what I believe is
happening around us in the hope that you will see
your own journey in mine and feel a bit more peace
of mind. I spent some time in Sedona, AZ at
the end of last month. It was intense to say
the least. My friend and I hired a
professional hiking guide and Shaman. We
wanted to experience the flow of feminine energy
and I welcomed the ceremony to let go. I'd
be feeling the disappointment of relationships I'd
formed and how they'd gone down a path that
became, for me, untenable. From the moment I
drove down the canyon I experienced deep
sadness. I wept on and off for the whole
four days. Those of you who know me well
understand this is unusual. In my meditation
time, I realized, I've been synthesizing my entire
life, going back through and feeling for the
unresolved. I've also been looking at places and
experiences that once brought me joy to see where
they fit now.
Over the last three months,
I've gone back to where I spent time as a kid, in
Toronto. Then I checked in with the leaders
at Coaches Training Institute where I learned to
be a Life Coach and now teach. I did a
presentation in Las Vegas, NV
of material I developed with a fellow coach many
years ago. There are countless other
examples of my looking for alignment. Where
am I in the River of life? After sending
last month's newsletter, I realized, I have no
idea where this path is taking me and part of me
wants to go back. To hold onto something
familiar. It feels as though on one
level, there's a tracker beam from Source on my
soul while simultaneously, Mary Beth, the
personality is in the River of Life and there's a
bend every step of the way. This part of me
lives in the 3D world and pleads, "Can you just
give me a minute here, to get my bearings?"
The answer I hear is always the same, relax
(allow) and let go.
I don't know about you
but, I don't particularly like to let go. It
usually involves some pain and yet, right on track
with the Mayan Calendar's 5th night, it's time to
shed old patterns. While on the hike with
the Shaman in Sedona, I realized a role I have
been playing for some time, that of
Caretaker. Nothing wrong with my natural
tendency to help others. However, it had
clearly crossed over into compulsion and made me
too agreeable, too flexible, afraid to share my
true essence, my feelings, and rejecting of help
from others which caused resentment in me.
During our hike I thought about the sheer
exhaustion I felt from this story I'd been living
out. I thought about all the intimate
relationships I designed in this manner.
What was I thinking? I can hold my clients
naturally, creative, resourceful, and whole.
Why couldn't I hold my friends and more
importantly boyfriends in this way? No
wonder I felt the need to move away from key
relationships.
Though I don't know exactly what
will replace this pattern, I can say, I've
successful avoided creating two new relationships
where I could feel the Caretaker dynamic
immediately. I know what balance feels
like and I'm now challenging myself to share my
true essence as in these writings. Little
steps make a difference. Having written all of
that last night, I went to bed with this question
of what needs to be different to shift our
patterns and I realized we have two choices.
Once we are conscious of a limiting pattern, we
can slowly, methodically, move in a new
direction. That's a fine way to
change. We do also have the ability to
cultivate the qualities of Divine energy that are
seemingly missing. I came up the antidote
"being state" of the Beloved for my pattern.
I then created a visualization to bring this
feeling alive. In this second method of
recreating ourselves, we are capable of a Quantum
Leap in consciousness as we become what we truly
desire. Though it always seems like what we
want is "out there" somewhere. "Out there" doesn't
show up differently until we "be it" inside. I
also realized my true disappointment is in myself
and the shadows of unworthiness and self-doubt
that when unnoticed run the show. Ah the marvelous
mind and its creations.
I believe that we
are in the midst of an internal flushing out in
order to align ourselves with the evolution of
creation. We will create states of being that are
far beyond conventional wisdom but first, we must
let go of old patterns and fixed ways of being in
the world. If you are caught in a whirlpool
(old pattern) the River (Life) just passes you by.
Structures are falling away on all levels and our
patterned ways of being will not allow us the
flexibility for what's coming. Think about
you own story is it superhero, victim, expert,
martyr, bully, workaholic, overly responsible,
irresponsible, apathetic, critic, skeptic?
How do you fool yourself, distract yourself from
following your heart's desire? It's time to
let go and allow the unknown to guide us to what's
next. There is an
emptiness that comes with letting go and that can
make us uneasy. Yet, there are guideposts
and lots more awake, aware, alive individuals to
commune with on the River. I'm happy to say,
I meet them almost daily and I appreciate that
connection. Ah, a kindred soul... you are to
me! We need one
another.
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About What I
Do
In my role as a Coach I continue to
work with Lifestyle Entrepreneurs and Wannabes in one on
one coaching sessions, tele-classes, and group coaching
calls. You're welcome to contact me for a
complimentary coaching session. More and more my
sessions are focusing on how to embrace your Calling by
aligning with your Intuition and the Spiritual Laws of
the Universe. Learn more now at Wholelife Coaching Please
feel free to pass this newsletter along to those who
might be interested. Thanks and make it a great
day!
In this year ahead, every class I offer will
be infused with Love. Every word spoken or written
will be one to remind you that the answers do not live
outside but deep inside your core.
In loving
service, Mary Beth Shewan, MS,
MCC
Wholelife Coaching
505.292.6478
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